On Sat June 26th

If u scroll down a bit, u'll see I dreamt about my mom maiming my brother's gf and my bf. :|

That is not far from the truth, and was a bit of a premonition. She becomes a horrible monster at certain times, often when it involves any significant other belonging to her children.

For someone who has a very unhealthy relationship with her husband, she is hardly the one who should be meddling in our relationships.

She has extremely strong abstinence views. I became aware of this in grade 6, when she pulled me out of sex-ed class, boycotted the whole thing, and invited all my female classmates over for her OWN version of the class. In the second half of grade six she slammed the door in the face of the first boy who asked me out. In grade 10 I brought my first official bf home and she couldn't have made it a more uncomfortable experience. She sat in the next room and eavesdropped and then yelled at me for letting him in my room. My brother's last gf, a very sweet girl, was scared of her. Oh and I can't forget the time my brother wanted to take her camping, and my mom called HER MOTHER to try and stop it. A mother calling her 19 year old son's girlfriend's parents because to stop a 'morally wrong' camping trip. (Her parents didn't see a problem)

She kicked me out in Sept. due to the same agenda. My brother came back five minutes past curfew from his gf's place, I let him in, she had a fit, told me I had to leave (after throwing a few punches, an hour or so of verbal abuse military-style, and a week or two of silent treatment).

Now she is kicking my brother out for the same thing. The stick is so far up her ass though, that she can't even vocally state 'Do not have sex before marriage.' Instead, she beats around the bush, erecting new 'rules' here and there to try and control the situation. When my brother found some loopholes, she got pissed. An insult to her attempts.

My mom is like the lone Marxist-Leninist candidate who got no votes at my polling station, staunchly set foot amidst a sea of 100 NDP-marked ballots. She is expecting my brother and I to adopt moral standards that are pretty much extinct in our society. Whether or not her views are right is not an issue. Her own personal convictions should come second to the priority of keeping our family together.

She is tearing our family apart based on some petty personal convictions. I can forgive her, but I will never forget the many ways she has torn my family apart and pitted us against each other. I can't tell her exactly what I think now, because I still depend on them a bit even though I've moved out. When I'm old, and she's old, I plan to drift away and not contact her much.