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I've been getting 5 hrs sleep every night this week. Funny. I usually need about 8 or 9. I'm pretty sure it has to do with feeling much more positive about life and having something to DO each day. Besides stay at home and mope about being jobless.

I can't stress how much I like everyone in my training class. Usually, classes form cliques, and there are only a few I end up talking to long term. But in this class, I like talking to each and every person. There's about 20 of us, all really different. But I think they do a good job of filtering people when they hire, because, well, these are just the type of people I want to know. Smart, business savvy, driven, outdoorsy, humble, cool hobbies, laid back..

It's very easy to slip and be let go for seemingly trivial matters, but so far I've aced both quizzes and haven't missed the timing system. (And haven't pissed anyone off majorly). The timing system is an anal bitch and a half. There are twelve 30-second windows throughout the day you have to sign in or out on a big-brotheresque program. Sneeze and u miss the 30 seconds and its a strike against u and ur closer to being let go.

Other than that, I'm loving the casual dresscode, free drinks, bagel day was today, our entertaining and pleasant-to-listen-to trainer, and the cool people. I'm already doing the Grouse Grind on Sunday with a girl I sat beside two days in a row. I asked for her msn so I could have a work contact at home, and she said she didn't use IM anymore, but that I should come do the Grind. I said no at first to appear aloof and un-needy (a reflex response created as a defense mechanism during teen years) but half an hour later sucked in my pride and said yes.

I neglected to mention Saturday's date is about 35-40 years old, an ex-gay man who I swore was still gay when I first met him, can strut down a runway better than me, and was married (to a female). He also has a Phd and two masters, and was a prof (at Ryerson I think?). That is just the tip of the iceberg. I think he's putting more hope and TLC into this date than I am. We agreed to do it after I changed my name to "I like guys.....from a distance" on msn and we started discussing that. "Water water everywhere and nary a drop to drink," he wrote, of all the girls he does makeup on, but whom he can't ask out due to business professionalism. So being a devil's advocate I guess, I said "Why can't you, why can't you!" and I guess he took that as an opportunity request my presense on Sat.

He has already said he is bringing flowers, his treat at a seafood restaurant, then smoke weed and stargaze on a mountain. LOL. He also says he knows we will have a blast, then I will run away and he will be sad. :S Unfortunately he's probably right. I just hope we can bottle it into a nice one-time event without anyone wanting more. Or, if, God forbid, someone wants more, I hope the other will too. I don't want either party dissapointed. That's why I 'don't date.'